I am back......

Its been more than a year since I last wrote on this blog... Time really flies... Some much has happened since and God has blessed me tremendously. I left my old job in GMP and have since move on to doing something I really wanted.

I joined the Singapore Flying College in 2 May 2008 and its been more than 2 months and running...... Time is really tough here as I recall the OBS Lumut Experience, to 1st time in SFC, to Tech Papers to ATPL phase now. The workload just gets heavier and heavier, there is like test every other day and absolutely no time to slack. Sometimes I really feel very discouraged and inadequate but thank God everytime I feel this way I get encouraged again thru His word and people around who will always affirm me.

I really treasure my time here right now and it will be such a waste if i lose all these memories now. So I have decided to keep a record of this here starting all the way back to OBS till now. This is always serve to help me remember my training days and why I wanted to be here in the 1st place.

Zhihao, Patrick & Me

Taken on the last day of our C152 Training

Amazing race !!!!!

I was meddling with my camera and suddenly I found some pictures of the amazing race at orchard road. The pictures are mostly people in my group. Well better late than never!

Green cow outside Hee-ren

GO backwards? OG

Birthday boys n girls

Mount Elizabeth Hospital

Handsome guys and cute girls

Prize winners ( can't remember why they won though....)

Youth park for the youth

Takashimaya!!!!

Time for myself

It seems like I have had any blog entry for a long time. I always like to believe and also tell myself that I am not the type that likes to write my thoughts. However maybe sometimes you need to do things you dun like for the sake of others.... Hmmm didnt Jesus mentioned that to Peter as well, that when he grows old the Holy Spirit will guide him to go where he doesnt wanna go. That means that will be times that you will think for others and not live juz for yourself.

Anyway it seemed to me like a long time since I had time for myself. I do have time alone but not time for myself. A paradox? I guess its the same when they say you can spend time physically with somebody but yet there is no intimate fellowship involved. Since I started working, I come home feeling tired... Even my prayers are always in a rush. The emerge conference has gotten me to rethink my life and somehow God has brought to my attention something v impt - my vision and direction for my life.

There has been a growing dissatisfaction in my life nowadays that always leads me to think abt career and what is God's plan for my life. God has given everyone talents right? Something that you can do naturally and excel. Something you are passionate abt and enjoy doing. Something you will do even for free. It frustrates me that I dunno what my gift is.

Sometimes i juz feel I dunno wat to do with my life, and yet at the same time I feel I can trust God and seek Him to uncover the purpose that He has. Isnt Christianity strange? Sometimes we feel depressed and frustrated and yet at the same moment you feel God's presence gently nudging and encouraging you. Thats exactly how I feel now. I started writing this entry feeling rather confused and discouraged but now somehow I feel the Holy Spirit gently touching my heart.

Anyway even if I am not sure my purpose or gifting there are a few things I know I am passionate about! Transformers, Liverpool, tennis, security ministry and Jesus of course ! If i have time I will blog more abt these things in my life and by doing so I hope people can get to know me better!

Wisdom Wisdom Wisdom

I was listening to Dr AR Bernard's cd on my way back from cg juz now and wow, words of wisdom just flooded my mind. Even as I wanna pen down my thoughts now i struggle to recollect everything i heard.

"Be specfic with the things you pray for," he says. "Know what you want and ask God for it. Recieving is only for those who ask" It seems that we all already know this but it really became a revelation to me as for the past few weeks i have been so unsure of what i want in life, especially when looking for a job. It was reflected in the things I pray, uncertainty and double-mindedness. But now i am cleared of doubts.... i am gonna think carefully and pray carefully for a double-minded person is unstable and will not receive anything.

"You do not know what you cannot do until you do it" Another statement that struck me. how many times have we done something and then we look back and thought we should never have been able to do that? This one struck my heart real deep. The next time I think I do not have the ability to do something, I better think again cause i really do not know till I try.

Lord help me to trust You, to take that step of faith, to do that which You want me to do. Let me always be bold and courageous to try things which I have never done before. If I do something I have never done before, I can achieve something I have never achieved before. Amen

Thank You Angel !!

Another hot topic going on currently in the Angel & Mortal game !! i want take this chance to thank my angel for the gifts i recieved. Look at the picture below..... Upon receiving the gifts i cant help but think that my angel is surely a lady..... i think the cg guys will not give me stuff like that.. haha.... i think i KNOW WHO U ARE ..... wahahahahahah

steve

A "wobbly head" frog & toothbrush holder from my FEMALE angel

Skating craze !!!!

Well there has been a "inline skating" craze going on for sometime now in e151. Almost the entire cell grp who do not own skates purchased them. I have wanted to buy one too but have been hesitating due to my lack of funds as i have intentions of buying a brand new tennis racquet.

However God is truly good God who blesses His children! My dad (the most awesome dad in thw world!!) heard abt me wanting to learn skating and offerred to buy me a pairs of skates!!!

So last saturday i went to east coast with calista, xiangcen, jacinta, donny and kelvin to buy my skates and attend my 1st ever skating lesson....... Prior to that day, a war of words broke out regarding the brand of the skates.

The various parties were as follows....

K2 blades ------ Xiangcen (leader), Kelvin

Salomon skates------ Yanlin (leader)

Scorpion ------- Bu bu (leader and the only one..... generally she is an advocate for peace)

Rollerblades----- Donny (wants to push for peace but always forced to take sides with Salomon)

i finally got Salomon blades so tt made me enemies with cen and kelvin and allies with yanlin..... Fortunately a "truce" was declared betweent the various powers, each believing that their own skates was the" best in the world".......

Enough of talking now.... lets go take a look at my Salomon motion 8 !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Branded stuff !!

I also think its the best in the world !!!

CHOICE

Back at the dreary place
Trying to find solace
Sense of trepidation
Ominous, Thunderous

Need to have more confidence
Of whom I am in Him
Was once shattered by incidents
Trying to stand again firm

Difficult difficult
The feeling is beyond words
Everytime someone calls for me
The most negative I will see

devil get out of my life
I don’t want to just sit and sigh
You don’t even deserve a small letter d
For you have no part in me
There are many things I want to do
I need to live my life to the full

So here I am praying
Asking God to help me
Look at my weaknesses Oh Lord
Come give me strength when I cannot

You say in the Bible that my weaknesses is made perfect in your strength
And under your wings I can abide in your presence
I know I have done many things wrong
Come and help me change Lord

I seek your forgiveness Lord
About the things that I have done wrong
My Manasseh I need from you
To be able to forgive and forget too

Today is the 4th of November
Raining and bleak out in the streets
Yet here I am in the office
Thank God for a roof above me
I just want to have a good day
At the end I want to praise your name
It’s going to take effort to choose
This beautiful day I will declare
I am going to be happy today.

By Xiangcen

Heartbroken

Heartbroken, slashed
There is pain in the depth
I feel anguish and sadness in me
As if nothing can set me free

Down
Over circumstances I have no control over
Confused
I thought maybe things could work out different
Truth
Could I have really made a difference…

Turmoil
I must get out of the devil’s ploy
Clear
Need to let go of my emotions and fear
Peace
He says that He will be with me

The Bible says
Trust God with all your heart
and all your soul and all your mind
The Bible says God is always near
There is nothing that He and I can’t handle
TOGETHER

I am going to try
To sing amidst my woes
With all my heart and all my soul
I am going to try

To praise His name and His goodness
To sing even when I am barren
To praise His name and His faithfulness
And to proclaim His awesome power

This night as I pour forth my soul
I know He knows my emotions
He says He counts the strands on my head
I know He looks at my brokenness
He says he keeps my tears in a bottle

I will be fine again tomorrow
His angels keep charge over me
His grace and mercy will surround me
His joy and peace will abide in me
I will soar on eagle’s wings tomorrow

By Xiangcen

Friends we are...

Friends we are... you and i! It's really amazing hw this friendship has blossomed over the past few months and here we are... our friendship still going strong = )

I just wanna say 'Thank you' for always being there... to listen and understand me... I knew i could always turn to you when i am down cos i knw you will be there unconditionally ... to pick me up and then tell me everything will be ok... you are just being you... there to share my ups and downs = )

The occassional visits to my hall... the telephone conversations we had n the lil card u gave me are your kind gestures to show me hw much you value this frienship as much as i do... I truly appreciate everything that you have done for me...

Yes, things will never stay the same because everyday our friendship is growing! No matter whom you choose to stick arnd with when term starts, just remember that i will be here anytime!

I dun have to say more because deep down, we both knw where this friendship stands = )

Take care n enjoy the hols! Cya arnd my dear fren...

Bao signs off...